Not street code
No vital way
No constructive feedback
No cost
In showing love
It's ok to end your own misery
By doing what makes you happy
I look for all that I want in those that can't even see
I wanted to be treated with respect
I wanted to be understood and heard
I wanted to be valued not just on the good days  
I know it hurts
I didn't disappoint you out of spite
Or hurt you when that time came
You kept hurting me
You kept showing me how I didn't matter to you
You showed me that everyday youd rather be with someone else  
Than put up with someone that was to much
Someone that had their own trauma
And that's honestly ok that you walked away and never looked back
You didn't even care about my upbringing
What I went through at home
Or even when I mentioned to you that I cried almost everyday
It didn't even cross your mind to ask
Are you ok
The last time a girl tried to set me up to go on a date I cried and left and said I can't do this
It wasn't even the guys fault
My heart isnt up for grabs
No rubies or amount of gold or money could ever convince me
To sit infront of a man and pretend to be happy
To only cry myself to sleep
To only repeat the same old thing
Same old thing