My mind is racing
Rambling
Spinning out of control
I cant stop it
Pleasing you was always my goal

I got so confused in my ways
Reversing not only by steps, but by days

When I was young I tried so hard to make everything alright
Always making impulsive decisions but never using spite
As I grew older, my heart started to die
I started to force things and forgot how to cry
To let out all the pain that has ever held me back

All the adults I know still have their pain intact

Where is that light that was once so vivid?
It vanished when we grew older and it has made us livid.

Animals snarling and glaring at one another
Traveling in pacts, but leaving behind fellow brothers

But not you, dear Dan
You have been all that you could be
You lifted my spirits
You had faith in me

I only wish I could see you once more and be proud of where I am
Since you saw me last I have not followed our plan

Day by day you were there to help me see
That the demons I saw in others were just a reflection of the demons that lived in me
You sat by the pond and listened to my soul when words my mind couldn't retrieve
When I lost faith in humanity, your trust made me believe

I'm sorry I turned out just like the last and became worse than ever
I wish I could say that my decisions are more clever
But I cant lie to you Dan
I never could
Although it's not what we had planned
I hope you're doing good.