What if I question myself? What if who I thought I was. . . Isn’t true anymore? I don’t know If I can bear The knowledge that I am, And always have been, A slick-tongued chatterbox. Are my words only half-formed, Unsure of themselves, Even as they go into the world As daggers, myself unaware Of all the harm I’ve caused others? My words have always been few. . . I never meant to. . . It seems my values have become Optional—I cast a blind eye To all the things that I do, And disapprove of— I wish I could be intentional Instead of flustered and Nonsensical when asked Simple questions— Is this why I am bad at chess? I cannot see ahead, I try to play smart and only End up in a castled prison-- I am checkmated by my own wide-eyed carelessness.