i’m lost my legs are tired and the concrete looks like a trampoline if you throw something hard at an even harder surface, the something does not bounce it breaks if i throw my body to the concrete that looks like a trampoline my bones will shatter but my soul will only bruise and that annoys me
You tell me i’m not alone which i find to be pretty funny because when my thoughts are falling out of my head too quickly for me to catch i’ll look around and all i see is fragmented thoughts splintered on the ground
i know i drag you down you say you won’t entertain the thought that my existence is a show put on by lucifer’s angels because i’m just dramatic you say my idleness is the reason why my brain is wasting away i’m the reason i’m wasting away if it’s all in my head, will the pain get better as i get worse?
You tell me i’m here and you’ll miss me if i go but when i tell them i’ve been trying to leave for years You tell me no i’ve been trying to stay for years i laugh
You tell me there’s so much more to live for smiles and hugs and really dumb jokes art and literature and art and art and art and art
one thing art has taught me? everything dies everything ends and humanity’s soul takes a beating every time we try to erase the existence they’ve worked so hard to create we could be frail and throw ourselves to the pavement the headlines the next morning would read "Another One Bites the Dust" or something
it’s really hard to be positive when you don’t want to be or remember how to be when stats of suicide are so frequently reported you wonder if that’s what you’ll become, another statistic “the percentage of suicides of bisexual, Russian adoptee females has now risen to 1%... this is Fox News reporting”