The feeling of your body heat is so soothing oh how you feel so warm
Each day I can feel you expanding for every piece of me to transform
Love dancing in your womb hearing the echo of my voice singing a new song
Your calmness the peace oh how wonderfully its is inside your womb what can go wrong.

A strange feeling started happening I can feel your distress things are becoming fragile and starting to feel like the winter
The water around me is so cold and it’s making me go blind
My body aching and hurting so much as I’m starting to get blisters
As the excruciating pain starts to crawl over all over my spine.

Mommy hold onto to me make it go back to the feeling of autumn
I feel all alone and I’m starting to sink to the bottom
Everything is so dark and time is going on and on feels like forever
I once had a dream that I replayed over and over again of you holding and kissing me that I’m by your side and all the possibilities we can do together.

Everything seems so bitter the atmosphere of your sorrow I can tasted in your tears
My whole body feels boated and weary all around is this fear
I can the darkness creeping up getting closer mommy please keep me away from any harm
Mommy can’t’ you hear my screams? Can you feel them ripping my arm?



Calling your name feeling so hopeless please don’t let me die here,
Feeling so lost I can see though you hiding your betrayal,
Limb after limbs drowning in my blood, I can hear my own scream echoing back into my ears and everything still so unclear,
Then started to have a vison of a man, of a messiah that was slash thirty-three stripes and hung driven by nails.

Hear him calling saying my child your suffering will no longer be anymore,
There was a warm sensation of seeing heaven opening their doors,
He carries healing in his hands his voice makes me see again saying child no longer will you be alone,
For you will be right next to me in heaven throne.
Mommy it hurt more to know it was you that you I’ve been betrayed,
But all I wanted to say is that I forgive you and that I love you and I’m no longer afraid,
I did my best to hold on to fight to my death,
I no longer can stay this is my end this is my final breath.


P.S Mother I probably will never know your reasons; or your overthinking doubts,
But just wanted to let you know that I feel more alive than ever before everything seems so clear and true, I’m at paradise above all the clouds,
Hope some day we’ll meet again, probably be all grown up by then but all of my thought will be of you and will send pictures of me in your dreams with my arms wide open holding each other,
Will always love you forever wish it would have been the other way around be by each other side holding me when I cry being the best person you can be I know deep in my heart you’ve of been a great mother.
by Jacob Cuadro