I want to run away

Just leave everything behind
Never look back again
But I keep on running away
And hoping for a change
But it never gets better

How do I even start over again
With all my memories of the past
With the memories of their sweet kisses and love
It just hurts
How did it even turn out like this

I miss holding their hands
I miss hugging their little bodies
I miss hearing their voices

I want to run away
I want to stay
The memories keeps on lingering on

Help me
I'm so alone.