I speak of what I've learned, but I tell no one of the journey, the mistakes to be where I am now. I tell no one. but I will tell you, this paper. When I was a child I repetitively watched my father beat what looked as future me. who I wanted to be. my mother. but as I grew older, I realized that is the opposite of who I would become. I watched my dad get drunk. he put this label on himself that my family couldn't bare. something I couldn't understand. achohlic. But seeing myself now, not even an adult yet. and still, I have before been consumed by alcohol, and chosen toxicity over purity. let someone lay hands on me knowing that all my father has done is teach me that I am no less than, a princess. yet he also taught me that laying hands on someone you love is okay. my mom taught me that staying silent is what we're good at, told me that someday shed be my hero. she never was. she taught me that how to cope is to move from 10 different guys in 10 days. I have watched myself turn into the people I told myself I'd never be. but now this is me. my dad is no longer addicted, nor is he abusive. but the scars are still there. and my mom is finally in a good relationship, but because of all that I went through, I will never let someone raise their tone with her. and when people like to state "if you weren't hit, its okay." but in reality, it will leave more bruises on you than those who were hit. because still, my dad is somehow, my hero. and for that, I will never forgive myself. I will never be the same.
This is the story I will tell nobody. sincerely, me