I need happiness in my life
because sometimes I am staring holes into my walls.
My mind wanders off.
What a waste.

I need happiness in my life
because there are days that I spent crying for hours.
My eyes turn red.
What a waste.

I need happiness in my life
because I could spent all weekend in bed.
My thoughts stay empty.
What a waste.

Sometimes I truly do feel happy.
Then I am laughing with coworkers,
take my dog for a long walk,
ride my horse,
read books,
write.
But when these days pass
I am wondering about it
question and
doubt it.

What a waste.

I need happiness in my life
because I actually know where to find it.
My heart beats.
What a waste.

I have happiness in my life
because we all do.
My happiness
is my waste,
is my mind,
are my eyes,
are my thoughts
lies in my heart.
Always does,
always will,
always did.

What a waste.