I actually wouldn't *want* to realize that I was God,
Not that it's dependent on whether I *want* to or not,
But the mockery would come from basically this idea of Lilith
And it just kind of all makes sense
That all of this I'm experiencing is dependent (solely) on the fact that I'm here to experience it

Some versions of myself got enjoyable realities, some got painful realities, but they all collide with one another. Basically I'm your progenitor xD you're going to shame and destroy me and whether I deserve it or not changes but ultimately I am a self-defeating process