rip out my heart feed it to the wolves and tell me that I am OK strike me down, you gladiator you torch bearer and wrap me in feathers till I sleep
my words are not mine I do not make them my mistress sinks them into my well and I merely pour out the bucket
this strangling weight pressing on my sternum (it is not a weight) I cannot find myself to push air into the lungs unless I can succeed in forgetting them
I cannot
burn me burn me burn me I am on fire and still I battle the cold
your voiceless throat is split red choking your clothes and my vision and you say ‘do not remember me now remember the chocolate on my forehead at lunchtime remember my head on your chest (breathe in/let go) do not remember me now’