Life is like a ******* free throw,
you've got to know,
just when to let **** go.
Cold and barren is my very soul.
I get colder the older I grow.
Looking like a freak show,
that's out of control
I'm impossible to console.
Got up and went has gone my get up and go.
Not my first ******* rodeo.
Yet still I take it slow.
Turn up the radio,
I am afraid so,
don't **** up the status quo.
Rock the boat to and fro
rock and roll in stereo
rock a ******* bowl
the formalities I forego.
I hide away in a shadow
laid low
language as colorful as a rainbow
in the darkness I blindly stroll
so incomplete that I can never be whole please can I have a drumroll
as I tunnel down another rabbit hole
get caught up in the undertow
heave ******* **
the afterglow.
I belong way down below.
What comes next hell I dunno.
Riding ******* solo
take the low blow
even so take the evening slow
do as I ******* say so
travel to the places even angels fear to go gung **
geranimo
enemies start to fall like a Domino.
Although
I have reached a different plateau
bravo.
Hands down I am number one
I cannot be outdone.
I can't stop what's already begun
you will die tired if you try to run
I am ******* spun
I do this **** for fun
I don't need a gun
my baseball bat is set on stun
the games I have won.
Mercy I ******* have none
I'm almost ******* done.
Take it straight to the dome
higher than a drone
better leave my *** alone
bad to the bone
your ******* I will not condone
spinning like a cyclone
my mind is blown
whoever I was once was is long gone another demon's spawn
like a cartoon I've been drawn.
Waiting on the break of dawn
brains over brawn
grass always green when it's someone else's lawn
I am not just another pawn
even up the score
leave them wanting more
who knows what lies in store
rotten to the very core
to the heavens I implore
guts blood and galore
walk right out the door
I don't need you anymore.
I am command
do as I demand
things keep getting out of hand
hand over the contraband
you don't seem to understand
chasing dragons in my ******* Neverland nothing ever goes as I had planned.
Short attention span
now get in the ******* van
we've got a job to do
stop acting as if you are brand new
chased by the things we did once pursue. Don't you have a ******* clue
I trust very few
well really just two
if one isn't me what makes you think the other one is you
out of the clear blue
I see you clearly in my rear view
the situation you did badly misconstrue
on the horizon so blue
come someone no one knew
give the devil his due
let the sharpened blade of steel run through. Another day another dollar or so they say not that it matters not to me anyway
it all sounds so **** cliche
same old ******* **** just on a different day. Is that not always the way
hell to ******* pay
over the game we ******* play
can't keep the demons at bay
we all seem to go so far astray
cigarette burning the window sill joint laying in the ashtray
song list stuck on replay
nothing golden here long enough to stay can't you smell the stench of decay
cover it now with death's most fragrant bouquet.
At least until the spirits fades the **** away I know I am just out trying to get faded seeing through eyes so jaded
attempting to appear somewhat educated. Self medicated
half *** sedated
not enough religion to be loved just enough to be hated
never once have I hesitated
I've just hurried up and then I've waited.
My heroes for ghosts have been traded underestimated
even when I have concentrated
I have made things so much more complicated
the **** I have comtemplated
this **** is over ******* rated
it's all in the mistakes that I have made
even though I'm unafraid
my welcome I have overstayed
the pen mightier than the sharpened blade
a true ******* renegade
on a final escapade
in a shallow grave we'll all be laid
as we have fallen prey
to the ones who will slay us all one day.
I'm silver now tarnished dull and turning grey
not who I portray
myself I betray
life full of discord everything in such disarray
nothing on display
so without further delay
I give it all away
another day has come and gone just that fast
haunted by the memories that never seem to last
bombarded by fragments of the past
hole in my soul so **** vast.
The crowd is amassed
they've all been aghast
everyone is out getting trashed
before my eyes my life has flashed
pitch black when everything crashed
looking for what I had stashed
half *** smashed
perfectly ****** up I'm ****** up all the time
outside the parameters of my own **** mind
time I cannot rewind
bound by blood to these ties that bind searching for something I doubt I will ever find
trying to keep it kind
what does fate have desgined
the stars have aligned
which path have I been assigned
a character I've been wrongly defined.
To **** **** up I am rather inclined
far be it for me to be the one to remind
that the past I can't leave behind
in chalk the bodies have already been outlined.
It's about time for me to ******* go I believe don't be so ******* nieave
it's not that hard to conceive
it's getting harder and harder to breathe
I must take my leave
I was given a reprieve
I have no time left to grieve
into the oceans water the ****** weapon I heave
feels like the world's weight on my shoulders I'm attempting to heft
cant get right I've went so far left.
This case is open and shut
I am stuck in a rut
out in the open like a sitting duck
spitting out the pieces of my broken luck
the definition of disorderly conduct
ready to just ******* erupt.
That much more corrupt
falling from the sky in a manner that is quite abrupt
don't you dare to interrupt
just do precisely as I instruct
if I don't I am ****** if I do I am ******
out in the storm trying to get thunderstruck reeking havoc and running amuck
in this addict's mindset I am stuck
this wall took me years to construct
justice I obstruct
your senses I abduct
I am just about ready now to self Destruct. Free falling from the sky in a tail spin
this may very well be a battle I will never win uncomfortable as I am in my own **** skin air perfumed with the scent of *** and sin notify my next of kin
that I am headed to the ****** bin
for trying to slay the beast with a bobby pin
insanity is doing the same **** over and over again
a foe hell no I am a fiend my friend
this is the beginning of the end
with my inner beast I must contend
even if I do not seem to comprehend
try to defend my world of pretend
really is this the way around the river bend into the crowd I blend
no more broken hearts to mend
further down I decend
time to make amends
ready to say amen
just so it can all begin again
the battle no one will ever win
I leave here not Nessa but Silver her evil twin.