i want to live life
in a way
whereby i can make
the simultaneous
assumption of
also saying:
i want to die.

       god almighty: i want to live
a life whereby i can also
say: i want to die.

your will and your should knots
of not and no...
forgive me: dear lord...
i want to live this mortal
hue...
with a willingness to die:
the second mother
of the womb that's death..
i want to live a life
willing to die...
because i have come to understand
the chains of Islam and
i've witnessed a Taylor Swift concert
and there's no such thing as
a heaven with 72 virgins:
the ploy of Allah making fun
of the theonomy of the 72 of Heb...

now let me explain:
i'm willing to live this life...
in order to will myself to die:
and that's interrupting you:
because i thank the potential of suicide:
unless you time it otherwise:
i truly don't mind...
but i love the idea of living
with the love of willing to die:
auto- without a concern for self-
and mind that hyphen prefix
stress...

          can you mind it...
i will be gone: spiraling into the **** of
abyss and you might blink might not...
but at least that's one excuse for
snoozing at noon... no?