Millions of things she wanted to say.
Millions of things going through her head.

I love you.

I hate you.

Both were true, love was more of
what she felt but she blurted
“I hate you.”
because she would
rather seem strong than vulnerable and
that was terrifying because she
pushed people away just so
people couldn’t see the side she
was too stubborn to show
but people longed to see.