I'm all but destroyed, still that is to be decided
I think back to my youth, to feel that happiness once more.
I set here not realizing the tears that build knowing,
I'll never find that naive happiness again.
That smile that warmth, shredded away for the misery I live now.
I cared so much for others I forgot me.
I forgot college degrees I graduated high school I own my own business.
But to what extent, im losing my grip..
I love a woman 9000 miles away a family I've always wanted.
But what can I do but work. I give and I give, so that maybe one day they
Will find a smile a moment of laughter I smile too.
But as always I cry later knowing I've given my life up for
Something that is so far away, I pray every moment of every day.
Is this my day God? Is this when you will take me...
Please guide me keep me safe... If I am to leave this world keep them safe..
Please help me.. Keep them safe... I've been consumed with helping others I forgot about me.. Am I selfish.. To ask one more touch a simple kiss?
Is that wrong for me to ask.. I understand, it is.. It is my job to feedd them, keep them safe....

If I beg in this moment for a simple touch.. Will I simply be disregarded?
I miss those happy moments as a child when all was right before I learned the hard way life is lost..

Love to all and may all your hopes and dreams find you. May your happiness never end so that the pain I hold never goes your way.