I wonder if
the waves took you away
If the sparkling surface
knew what to say

I wonder if
you felt safer there
If in the palms of a god
your limbs tangled beyond repair

I wonder if
the roar of the waves
If the wind tearing past your silhouette
sang a devastating praise

I wonder if
you slept for hours
If it took minutes or days
for you to wilt fragile as a dead flower

I wonder if
every road leads to you at the edge of a cliff
If no laugh and no kiss
you could see as a gift

I wonder if
the ocean will always be blue
If the red wine you spilt
will stain it a bruised purple hue

I wonder if
a piece of you still exists
If I really see your face
your fingers wrapped around my wrists

I wonder if
the days are still passing
If I live in my mind
your memory haunting and harassing

I wonder if
we scattered in the wind
If we are shattered pieces
undone with cracked bones and skinned

I wonder if
my life can be worthy
when you were stolen away

Why can my life not end early?

Let my mind slumber and my body decay