your silence hurts so bad
that i actually start to feel
physically sick

my thoughts feel completely
chaotic and obsessive
often about you

it drains me to act like
everything is fine
but emotionally i feel so tired of it all

i start to put my phone on silent
because i know i can't handle the pain
of waiting for your text

everything else feels numb to me
because all i ever think about
is you

it gets pretty lonely
so lonely that it hurts
and i don't know if i'll get over this feeling

i long for the day
when you tell me it was a mistake
and you want me back

but today is not the day