It's hard to control this feeling.
I don't even want to feel this.
This feeling is beyond my control,
like a demon entered my body,
took my soul and replaced it with his.
It's like a fire burning inside of me,
Itching and wanting to get out.
I can't do anything about it.
I'm helpless. Worthless. Useless.
I'm sorry! Please forgive me...
I can't even help myself.
Please understand...
I don't want this.
I didn't asked for this.
Actually, I hate this.
I don't want to feel this.
Please forgive me...
please...although I'm not worth it.