I remember your cashmere sweater Always soft against my cheek As you brushed my hair with your fingers And I would fall fast asleep
I get that you have a new life You've replaced your baby with these children of yours And I wonder how you will tell them About the life you couldn't afford
I'm so glad to see you're healthy No longer skin and bones Your track marks have healed so well But that skeleton was my home
I know you still think about who you were Ash, you can't change over night I'm curious how you will break the news Or look at me and make things right
You were my mom when our mother escaped And we were robbed of a childhood; forsaken But I am still hurting, still being mistaken Your halo is dimming, it was never that bright You'll always be an addict living a fight
I'm happy we can have conversations Without your eyes involuntarily shutting It's sad that it makes me sad though You're what I think of when I'm cutting
Your pedestal you placed yourself so high on I'm watching as it's cracking And you would be such a fool If you don't think I've been backtracking
I've got these scars I didn't forget You are my nostalgia I am your regret