bouncing off the walls a slight tidbit and shandy because i just love those advertisement interruptions when i'm in the mood to write and i set my alarm for 9am or rather 8:50 and i did wake up but chose to remain in a bedded position because that wasn't just a dream those were two days in two lives in one a shared experience and just thinking about love & suicide and paddling from the north side of the island to the south side of the island of Kauai because i was having a midlife crisis whatever that means a midlife crisis is a bit like global warming a massive farce a diabolical bollocking sentiment that's the 3rd time i had ******* and i sexed her up good so that she was ******* herself while i was playing tweezers and pliers with a limp oyster **** hey Jeronimo hey Jericho a city and a people a bit like Pompeii all in its glory that joke of lawyers and attorneys of: if you want to make god laugh: tell him your plans and he will say: islam and by the god willing decree you pitiable man you humble man you enviable man i am the jealous god speaking unto the enviable man and that is as far as i dare to say my presence not otherwise otherwise in birds and tectonic stomachs of a rumbling like water boiling oh this oblivion of the dark grey hot day of the birth of Gemini and Samir and i cannot part and i have to come to terms with the burdens of love and if i'm to be having ******* with Hawaii then i need the eyes from behind that Niqqab to be looking at me fiddling their rings of marriage and proposal and i need to know why i'm to make alternative conjunctions and prepositions of exclaiming !!! !!! !!! !!! the problem with pronouns conjunctions and puncture marks like abruptness of the dot and the Q: ?: question and the colon and semi- what a sentence preserved: mummified even i swear to god i am god in my solitude without a loneliness and today's menu looks pretty already i have a cabbage with baggage a carrot without a stick a donkey a jockey an Armageddon and if Nietzsche thought himself a ****** then i think myself a Teuton it's as if i'm not something organic that history makes me inorganic that i have a history and a people and a binding will of the collective unconscious and that i can't motivate myself enough other than myself in my worst habits
i'm spinning i'm spinning i'm spinning i'm out of control but i'm also in control i chose to write but there are also household chores but i didn't smoke all of it it's all uphill from hereonin here-on-in up up up up up up up up up all the way up there's no point in my slowing down i need the air the breath the soul if if i'm going to gamble with this love magnet a Taurus and a Gemini if you should so speak because i told her a joke i was so tired and i thought about going to the brothel but i didn't so stupid i mean: did you even bring your "other" ring: yes that **** ring i don't mean what gets the girls staring the younger ones when you come all stainless steel and wood on finger a ring a ring on a finger a sun in the sky of day and a moon in the sky of night
a tide of ocean a river my feet walking a tide of ocean a river a tide of a river my feet chasing feet my eyes blinking
my eyes blinking me interaction with the former Putins the Deutsche....
one gigantic hard-on for a word that's impeding... thumping me Mongolian Saudakur style grunt grunt grunt gurgle hunger one meal a day Bruce Springsteen style...
Geheimnis - secret Civic - bürgerlich polizei -
polity and the philosopher polity and the philosopher
ah... perfect rearrangement just did the duty of emptying those two decorative bark sacks in the garden under the Patagonia and Pagoda and Nebraska or somewhere clinging to far away places but the *** so close now i'm itching fidgeting and itching once more i want to scratch my brains and i know i only have one but there are two hemispheres and already
the schematic semantics of math and how numbers know numbers and how letters don't know letters and how there aren't syllables in numbering Katakana a 10 doesn't make it a binary of vowel consonant or consonant and vowel but that there is vowel distinct from consonant and how woman is a vowel and how man is a consonant and this is my microscope my telescope into the ventures of man as soul and oscillation away from the days' removal from the status: just an animal...
now the throat is dry and i'm going back into my garden as either Adam or Satan and if she wants... she can moan like a Capirote on fire that's where Christianity is vibrant and echoes a love of men for men and women are like secrets like the ones you keep hidden in Je-CHO-Wa he: who hides them (them): being women...
he who hides women from the harm of the charm man became endowed with with Sisyphus and the bundle of burden that rock and Adam's apple and the thinker of Rodin and his resting clenched fist ***** face...
by 3:30 the effects should be wearing off and i should be gearing up to making that beetroot coleslaw i have the red cabbage and red onion and the carrots the lemons and the yogurt and i will probably stop thinking
or think that out of all the 300+ employees i was asked to go to Portsmouth on the 14th for a 7h shift at a silent disco but i asked about the engineering work potential on the 7th and 8th and how two days ago it took me almost 3h to get home to what then kiss the doorknob and go back out am i mutant robot or Mongol just want to know so maybe i can leave early if put on gate 3 they are really sparing me when it comes to DC3 and i always volunteer but each time i get rejected perhaps because i'm prized i don't know you can really write a philosophy of work i mean you can truly write about micro-managing your psyche in a working environment you feel that Nietzsche went mad because he didn't have menial tasks before him and Bukowski on the other hand couldn't materialize on the gems of thought when performing menial tasks... and Heidegger is found somewhere in between...
i smoked i drank a little but i already went out to the shop to get more whiskey and a baguette and Havering Road was filled with skipping and tictactoe and a girl and she was called Reyla and please don't make me speak my stomach's soul
Mongol:
дуу хоолой duu hooloj!
сүнс бурхан
strange seeing Mongolian in script: NOT in Turkic - but Slavic... Greco-Slavic
those sneaky ******* from the ancient world those Greeks first they hijacked the Hebrews and rebuilt the Roman Empire - Troy - since the origins of the myth of Rome is that of defeated Phoenix of Troy
now they hijacked the Greek lettering themselves and applied their genius to the Slavic people who competed with the Germans and at the pinnacle cheap-***** Soviet metal competed with staging a filming of the moon landing no sorry no R.E.M. song like U.F.O.
disputed by all costs "win" the "race"...
are we all so dumb deaf and bereaving a fate of debt that somehow to no greater advantage there's an Aladdin with a lamb and a camel shaped lamp and there's the rich man and the rich man gets murdered is depressed O o O what then Oo that's like also oOo that's the trinity of earth moon and star and some vague Postman Pat to Lucifer: you forgot my black & white cat so rhyme is echo is rhyme is not thyme is time and timing and space and spacing and so dislocated verbiage much Morse: or worse than a finger no longer pointing to somewhere called elsewhere like death is a rattling toy and i have only sand dunes in my vibrancy of contested spirit...
to the far burrows of the former kin - in kind by way of summary a "buying" of leverage of time contested as lost to: a commute...