I could never get tired of you
the days I go mute
I wonder more about you
yea
I’ve been getting mad and snapping at everyone as I realized it’s June another year another chapter I think it’s safe to say I’ll start my new clean slate I don’t hate you I hate myself for loving you more than I loved myself and caring so much but I couldn’t even do it different it’s just who I am
But when I don’t hear from you and read your
subliminal messages they do make me more depressed cause I’m so tired
I’m barely holding on and you just wanna cut off my fingers that are grasping on to the ropes of our despair I really do pray for peace but my hearts been so broken it’s felt like a part of me has been missing for years so many people hurt me but why can’t I get over you I really do try
I do hide it well this isn’t a good bye this is seventeen year old me asking the one whose gonna be twenty four year old wondering should she wait even for him when he just admitted he’d never comitt and doesnt prefer remedy
I been doing time in my head
And this time I’m doing time on love that’ll never recieve and that’s depressing