aestuosi pedes or perhaps pedes aestuosi: whatever the order might be it did bring me unto a rather favorite passage of Cicero:
“He’s a slave.” But he may have the spirit of a free man. “He’s a slave.” But is that really to count against him? Show me a man who isn’t a slave; one is a slave to ***, another to money, another to ambition; all are slaves to hope or fear. I could show you a man who has been a Consul who is a slave to his “little old woman”, a millionaire who is the slave of a little girl in domestic service. I could show you some highly aristocratic young men who are utter slaves to stage artistes. And there’s no state of slavery more disgraceful than one which is self-imposed. So you needn’t allow yourself to be deterred by the snobbish people I’ve been talking about from showing good humour towards your slaves instead of adopting an attitude of arrogant superiority towards them. Have them respect you rather than fear you.
noted: for the sense of fluidity i discard all above formality of Place or Name: sometimes on a whim, yes, if prominent: either place or name -
and note that each new line is not bound to paragraph (¶) pillow - crow
said to measure: expanse of - money, printable sap of space of (a) page and as such: a sobering ambition, reflection, reminiscent of youth and Nietzsche and: if anything equivalent to Ecce **** can be printed then this governed by the luxury of not printed...
on morality: as a prejudice? that's not Nietzsche: not neat: cher: chim-chimeney-chim-chimeney-chim-chimy-cherry not him: me,
on morality: as prejudice... since mortality is not ethics but an allusion to ethics: morality is like fashion is a sense of fashion while ethics is simply the dignity of wearing clothes or rather of wearing protection morality is how there is more to cloth than simply keeping warm the allusion to *** should summer come and summer women... who are not the women of winter and how all that attire is exclusive no, in summer a woman's attire becomes inclusive or they say: it is warm enough for the bees and the birds and honey glazing of otherwise porcelain "anemic"...
larvae like see-through skin you'd dare to look for a pulsating worm-like structure resembling an *****.
or is there a subjective experience of having a heart? i wonder because the objectivity of heart on the basis of pulse: is there a subjective experience of the heart like a heart is subjected to the clenching of the hand to insinuated not so much a fist to further insinuate violence but a clenching of the hand to insinuate a clenching of the heart a heart's pang of pain not pain: real but pain metaphysical like love lost love loved love as a chemistry, binding of two bodies then unbinding like the need for two rings of metal coupled...
quote: "on this perfect day... i buried my four-and-fortieth year... philosophy... hammers... now i'm going to tell myself the story of my life"
and that is curious, or rather this is also how you experience a luxury of writing should reading be exhausted and by no far stretch of the imagination this is a little vain a little sordid or at least there's an aesthetic to the ascetic - which is hardly seen but remains intact perchance on the street outside a train station three bums drinking wine basking in the sunlight while everyone else busies themselves (with themselves):
existential revisionist theory, a soft beginning, inclined to the romance of Islam maybe i've been working in the security industry far too long with a multitude of races, creeds and chocalatiers since i believe i see that the future is biracial at least a new Aztec Mecca in the smoldering *** of hyped over hyped *** i see the future as mixed-race but i don't see the other necessary future that is in me:
bilingual because it's not just enough to break a few eggs into the tease of horror-sexuality of the cis-woman so much better than the early sexuality of Bilie Eilish and now out for Lunch bad guy bad guy i'm finally making a girl cry not the one crying not the broken idealist of my years of 21 springs now i finally found my wrecking ball my Damian O O the wheel and O i spin into o o o o o o o o o o o o o bubbles all not so like bubbles but some sort of covert mathematics like algebra but not algebra because there are no hard-on limp **** problems clearly defined no this is more an algebra without letters as letters or unknowns with only 9/0 fold Truth the avenue of awe while angels stopped singing and instead started whispering to me the angels stopped singing instead started whispering into my mind's ear
if there is a mind's eye: i third party who and why
sobering thoughts burden me when i drink two fire-milk whiskeys and smoke a joint because i microdose i micro-dose what i smoke if a sprinkle in a giant bush of tobacco rolled up rolled into a tight bun *** oh the glutton over the intolerance to the whey woah woe-ah like woe sulking over a disco mummy dance behind a mirror and all the **** that's equivalent to the population of octopii of the seas...
all she knew prior was no music because she was collecting music then sold the vinyl melted it into linq: liquidrice liquorise... darker than spice a bit like hash Hashish Hasha... Ashar and the Bashar al-Qud
revel in the following telegraph:
CHRSTNTY XHSTD exhausted humanity somehow too much humanity in a single man existential revisionist not secular dead end all politics no myths just newspapers not fires and talk and the one madman Elijah to go into wilderness for the voice of god because humanity somehow forgot and forgave itself: it started forgiving itself for forgetting and making upkeep a sort of last resort of angles in the health and safety rules at work
ergonomic sophistry like i'm rhyming to the rhythm of a song... rhyme to rhythm of a song
RHYM' RHYTHM i found the two gammas... alpha male beta male and the gamma male radioactive... imitation of Rzeczpospolita "too many consonants" not enough vowel glue...
Riff - raff -Ryvm... very velvet very not sleepy so borrowed time on the touch of water from behind a white glove... no not helium filled surgical gloves touching the waters of birth waters of *** waters of mouth waters of oral waters of constipated *** and anti-birth for the *** all pleasure just gay dead ends no children now my children not my children all seem like children and chills... the waters of periods moon skies and cycles and buying plots of land but not buying with words like pennies by the simple math of effort invested in, regardless of rewards because
capitalism is anti-literacy with the books it pushes all autobiographies written by ghosts of men who excuse them reaching the heights being dyslexic... that's Muhammad the Prophet of WHWH because is LLH to special for gay lord...
such is the extent of AI generated responses it's like having a secret internet that was not there prior and that's me not even having dwelt among the super cool gansta rot of the deep web with all the human perversity depravity and satan bound to happy-sad japan...
elsewhere the transition from Christianity to Islam because the Hebrew cult is confusing enough from how language is a study of the Torah and how slang is not going to be anything short of finishing that book mind you currently on my list of multi-tasking books because i have taken the forbidden fruit of an audiobook of the lord of the rings: the fellowship
but i'm gathering history in books i can't just overlook, forget, a labyrinth alley of forest dried and smoked books, list:
knausgaard's vol 6 of mein kampf frank herbert's dune olson's the maximus poems zhuangzi's writings the master and margarita in german....
i have all these books started: problem being like someone i heard say about Dickens' the Pickwick Papers... oh yes... that's another book on my list... like this person said to entice... the problem with the Pickwick Papers as a book... is to have finished reading it...
thus i pledged: start reading as many books and leave them unread or rather keep them... eternity is going to be a long flight of the citizens of nothing toward god so it's going to be boring and painful so i need reading material and the forthcoming book on my list of books started but not finished is...
mad enough to spend £47.55 for a book of 420 pages... meadows of gold and mines of germs by al-Masudi...
just because he was an ummi (mommy's boy) doesn't mean that in some trance he started scribbling, Muhammad... anyone can take complications of a man and attire them to self then somehow exfoliate counter to the narrative of the supposed clues to cues for life... but i will not transcript the answer of the AI (chatGPT is like the internet as an app since i predominantly used the internet to search, regardless of music i want to listen to best advertised but search engine for answers like skimreading like a skinny late like a skinny girl no **** no *** so i mean like Google 2.0 that's chatGPT):