Friends, and
Family
Everywhere......

I feel their every stare.....
The worst of which
I can barely bear.    
My reflection
Won't make eye connection with me anymore...
Blood .
..shot eyes.  
Snot ,tears ......
Blubbering.
Convulsive inhaling.....
Worst case scenarios
On repeat .
I'm up braiding the pain caused by me tuning it inwards to pay Penance
This is all the things I've done wrong marathon
Staring me as the morrow
I'm the only one invited .....
No one sees the pain
I hide it everyday thinking this surely means I'm a good man......
Ironically since Noone sees
Me Bleed internally
They assume I haven't changed a thing.......this why evey mistake made is to the world not a big deal
To me it's everthing...
It's devastating