and as I write this  know not if its for you or myself or even who you are
I know why I'm in pain
three way love my brain
getting ****** by the past and things i cant change
I'm in pain love
tried to wash my hands but  stained gloves
every time I put them on its pain love
don't think its ever gonna change love
spend all my time but still no change love
its all that's on my mind nowadays
all night
daylight
its all growing dimmer
or am I being blinded slowly
where there was shadows i see darkness
but still this is not the change love
I write these words with the stained gloves
all this **** in my brain i cant explain love
I think I'm dying slowly
I lose my grip on myself and fall into the reality of it all
Ive been drug through insanity and forced out
I try to go back in
but when i get there
I realize
that things never change love
I've been looking for what's not there so
maybe I should just forget it
and blame love
its the one thing I could never change love
who I choose is not the real one
maybe I've lost it or I've already won
in the end hell is hot
and I feel so cold
my hands fall listlessly
all ten of them
two more join me for the darkest hour
I am encapsulated by you love
i've been thinking about the things i cant change love
and its turning  me into oblivion
I am destroyed and within myself i have forced a whole
but no matter how many times I break
how many times I rebuild
there are still some things I cant change love
maybe its better if I break love