i'm not sure how it started.
maybe i was bored
or maybe i finally started getting guys to notice me.
the pictures, my way with words, my honesty--
that's what they loved most about me,
and i kept doing it.
until it became too much and i fell in love.
but it was fake.
i started over again and i repeated the same things,
only this time things were different;
the pictures became better, sluttier,
my way with words became more convincing,
and my honesty turned into lies.
and now the second guy is gone and i'm left with the others waiting for me to reply back to their messages.
i don't know if i want this anymore.
i don't know who i am.
i don't recognize myself.