I was determined to succeed, but didn’t really have the faith I doubted myself, Because of the consequences faced Tears run down to my soon to be wrinkled cheek What am I?? A lady with no hope for the future, and with a purpose unknown but expectations.
Others wake up to their work places I trot around, In my old ragged and tattered clothes Young children mock me I don't have the strength to fight back With no food in my 4 but 2-legged table I sit down and expect food.
I’m living a life, that no one wants to live The kind of life I have, has short lived happy memories A chain of sad memories, A thought lingers in my mind As I think of the good times, I had with my father I was once happy, but he left before it could all stick I then lived a life with tears as my daily bread Accompanied by bruises as my tea The woman I called mother changed or maybe she was blinded She couldn’t see the difference between her daughter and just a figure All that pain was slowly killing me It felt like I was being suffocated and drowned at the same time I only wished that I could die, without feeling anymore of it.
Living a life where you are reminded of how good it once was A life where the only time you say something Is when you are sobbing in your little bed I used to wonder what my crime was I never chose to be a girlchild But I was suffering for fate’s course
I ran and never looked back, I forgot about that place At least I thought I did, but I didn’t, I couldn’t And look at me now I’m stuck in a world that surely doesn’t want me I’m living because I’m a coward I cannot take my own life, but I think about it a lot My heart is really hurt, my body and soul too It feels like it was once constructed, Then bisected I’m devasted and hungry Dejected and angry But I don’t know who I’m angry at? Do I still blame my father for dying? My mother for forgetting that I was hers? Or at myself, for letting it all get to me.