I have always felt different in a lonely way. My church friends will never understand me or accept me. I don't know why I keep going to church. I guess it is a habit. A habit that appeases my mom but not me. The moment I walk into church it is like I am on autopilot. It is as though I am looking into someone else's life not mine. I know I grew up in that church but it doesn't feel like me anymore. I know what my church friends expect of me but I know I am not like them. I am this boyish looking girl that is proud of who they are as a person. My religion doesn't define me. I define me.