all this time i tried to give you an excuse. i tried to lie to myself that you're just hurting too, and you're trying your best. i tell others you're a great mother to me, and how lucky i am to have someone like you. i mention how strong you are and how you're the strongest person i know. i lie and i lie and i lie. so that i don't have to face the reality that you don't actually love me. you see me as a stranger and want me out of your home. you don't believe in me, and i am no daughter to you. how cruel a mother can be, but you were never a mother to me. i didn't grow up with a mother's love. and even without a mother figure in my life, i know **** well i won't be the kind of mother you were to me. and i'll make sure my children don't grow up second guessing their mother's love, like how i did with you.
to the person i'm supposed to call my "mother," but all she did was birth me.