I feel so brave
Yet so scared
I look into the mirror
And something dreadful stares

I feel a sickness in my mind
Feeling feelings
I thought I had left behind

White numbness in the days
blinding fury
bursting through the haze

Nobody seems to understand
Nor seems to care
Nobody seems to realise
I'm neither here

nor there

Have you ever tried to cry
But the tears just won't come?
Ever seen a darkness
That seems to block out your sun?

Have you ever hurt yourself to feel alive
From your own thoughts
Trying, trying, trying to hide

The doubts and insecurities
They just never seem to give in

I guess maybe
Maybe

One day I'll win