I feel so brave
Yet so scared
I look into the mirror
And something dreadful stares
I feel a sickness in my mind
Feeling feelings
I thought I had left behind
White numbness in the days
blinding fury
bursting through the haze
Nobody seems to understand
Nor seems to care
Nobody seems to realise
I'm neither here
nor there
Have you ever tried to cry
But the tears just won't come?
Ever seen a darkness
That seems to block out your sun?
Have you ever hurt yourself to feel alive
From your own thoughts
Trying, trying, trying to hide
The doubts and insecurities
They just never seem to give in
I guess maybe
Maybe
One day I'll win
Feb 22, 2024
Feb 22, 2024 at 3:49 PM UTC
Are my words too hard to swallow?
Did I offend the offense in which you wallow?
We are quick to judge, to blame those in power,
yet we break our own rules, every hour
The truth is too scary so it's not a fact,
slowly humanity dies from a heart attack -
we are oh-so-happy to believe all the lies
and yet recoil in horror as we unleash the flies
Satan's on speed dial, but he won't pick up
too disgusted with this world we've fully ******* up
fear spreads to every nation
but progress is contagious, so it's stuck at the same station
In a world when diversity upsets the masses
in a stagnant society that kisses the ignorant ***** -
What have we become, has it really been here all along?
Are we forever doomed to sing our own swan song?
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 1:05 PM UTC
If life was a flutter
of the wings of a butterfly
and love was the mutter
of feelings both here,
and gone by
If sadness was a kiss
on my trembling cheek
and lies were a snake's hiss,
from a barbed tonge
it speaks
If remembrance held my hand,
comforted me through the sorry nights
and if silence were a flicker
a watching angel
keeping on the lights
If my love for you could walk
it would run faster than any cheetah
and if your trust could talk
it would embrace me,
grow deeper,
If time stood more than
and caressed all that is true,
and if I am only but a man
and you are my life
well for that
I thank you.
Jul 20, 2020
Jul 20, 2020 at 5:29 PM UTC
It’s been so long
Since I’ve woken to an empty bed
It’s been so long
Since I’ve had septic thoughts suffocate my head
Your eyes so blue,
I could stare for endless years
Cutting through the fog, you make me feel
Make me feel like I’m close to tears
Once seeking comfort from those
Who closed their blinds on my twisted mind
You wouldn’t understand what I’ve been through
And the pieces that I’ve left behind
The time has finally come
To move forward and forget the past
Like the cigarettes I used to smoke
That façade is now nothing but ash
It’s been so long
One foot in heaven, one in the grave
Shackled by a pain
this lovestruck fool you’ve willingly saved
Your eyes so blue,
I could stare for all of time
The time for change is now
I am yours, and you are mine.
Jun 29, 2020
Jun 29, 2020 at 6:41 AM UTC
As a nation stands still
swallowed by a tide so ferocious, it kills,
as our streets, once so lively, now stand dead
held by fear, a contagious anchor of lead
And yet the birds will still sing in the morn
and the sun will still rise at dawn -
life is more stubborn than the death it evades
you just need to open your ignorant eyes, see what's at stake
We may feel seperated, anxious, alone
and there may be others who are sadly gone
but together in this blindness we will *****
for even in the darkest corner there is hope
Marvels of technology abound
there is communication all around
from letters, to video chats and phone calls
as long as we stay sensible and not panic, we will not fall
Keep your loved ones safe by keeping your distance
only venture out if necessary, ignore your selfish insistence
do you really need the object you desire
do you not care about being a potential killer liar?
Our backs are up against the wall
the selfish acts still occurring, apalls
if you do not heed our government's cries
someone else, or others, will die
The sky will still be blue in a few months time,
the mountains will still stand for us to climb,
we need to wait, relax, keep our front doors shut
for if we don't, will some of us still be here?
I fear not.
May 9, 2020
May 9, 2020 at 10:40 AM UTC
Song birds sing in the morning dawn
no longer waking with a tired yawn
a calm surrender of things of the past
a path forwards I can pave, at last
Who be this new man -
moving onwards rather than stand?
There's a future in his eyes I can see
for, no longer in tears, he sleeps
Grasping a star and holding it close
rather than hold onto anger, he let it go
an absence of darkness, what is this?
What, no, could it be? Happiness?
Jun 30, 2019
Jun 30, 2019 at 8:44 AM UTC
There you are
with your new guitar and bleached hair,
stood before
a torrent of chants that do not care
Do you sing a song of pity,
of self loathing and freedom?
Do you sing a song of lies,
of politics and deceiving?
There you stand
with shaking arms inside a designer shirt
gazing out with
a smile fastened so tight it hurts
skin unfeeling as the grand drapes start unreeling
exposing a mass of faces vile and cheating
Oh shall we lead these fans and followers,
like rats to the water?
Do we take their willing hands
and lead the lambs to the slaughter?
When humans digest so much emotion it boats their heads
'tis the seed of exploding bombs and streets that run red
infected with disillusioned beliefs and false prophets
oh what do we do when the paranoia rockets?
******* drugs and easy friends
writing songs and music, distracted messages that fail to send -
Do we sing a song of peace,
of fair equality and proprietary?
Or shall we sing a song of truth,
of gluttony, of the ***** stain that is our society?
Feb 21, 2019
Feb 21, 2019 at 4:48 PM UTC
Ghosts of past icons hung on the walls,
echoes of music whispering through halls
of stained chequered linoleum floors,
incarnadine crimson curtains and dead applause
welcome to Tranquility Lane Hotel
where all you see is broken
welcome to the devourer of dreams, where
you can buy shame with one chipped casino token
when all you fear is real, and all you wish is perished
when all the world around is charred, here we have everything you ever cherished
***** drugs, fights and ***
money, food, water and insects*
the mutant hounds of the apocalypse screech and howl
as you sit back in a freshly perfumed bath towel
watching old TV adverts of a world gone by
an era decimated in the blink of an eye
stretch back and sip that brilliant post-war champagne
please ignore the screams and mysterious stains
no one ever leaves, no one ever tells,
welcome traveller to
Tranquility Lane Hotel.
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 6:34 PM UTC
Strangers in the morning dawn
I saw your face against the morning sun
you kiss me though my lips are cut
loving me though my heart was shut
you drove a wedge between my tortured mind
you let me leave my nagging demons behind
those crystalline eyes of pure truth
never in all my time, never in all my youth
would I have thought
I'd have found the most perfect girl in you.
Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 6:13 PM UTC
A man is not a man without a heart
but a shell, wherein loneliness rips apart
every morsel of truth, infecting with lies
bitterness and longing buzzing about like flies
there was a time a few years back where I could not see past the wall
a mental structure I built to crawl away from all
I grew cold, I grew callous, I did not care
at the corpse in the mirror at which I stared
the days were black and the hours mundane
with each setting sun my lust for life waned
I was broken, devoid of strength, seemingly through
then everything changed the second I met you
you know I care not for expressing feelings or emotion
or should I say, expressing is something which I struggle
but our stupid jokes, the little quips and kisses
are something I've so long been missing
you're perfect to me, and that's the truth
and I just wanted to say I love you
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 5:16 PM UTC