Clouds of smoke
Swirl around my head
Like the thoughts inside:
A foggy sludge
Making mocking faces
Mimicking my ghosts
'You are a lush'
'You are a rogue'
'You are a pain in the ass'
Ashes falling to the floor
Pulling me along
Cherry red fire sizzling
Burning away my resolve
I get up
And I fall farther
Face it, said the smoke
You're no phoenix
My eyes close
I agree.