Allusions to the mind, causes sorrow for the heart, someone hoping to die before they see who they really are, looks at the phone and throws it, saying there's no hope for him in life or love, he wants to grab that knife, ignorant is the word but refuses to use it, bc it's so close to home it feels like knives stabbing right through him, lied to so many times he got numb, naturally happy is what has become, but it's happiness to the numbing unaware of it, he doesn't wanna wake, he just wants to be a kid, doesn't want his dream for he's afraid it'll slip away, just like everything else, trying to avoid his creator to become himself, and he's just human, even though he forgave he could never forget the memory of him leaving, cant you see why his hearts bleeding, why he keeps seeing these demons, and even though he wants to get out he stays bc he's now numb to the pain,