Scared

I had a moment
A moment of real happiness
A silly loving happy moment
It felt like learning to laugh again but also strange
It really was a good moment

But I'm scared
Scared to fail
Scared to ruin this
Scared of never being enough

I feel like it's unfair to you
Like I'm not worthy of love

What if I don't find my will to live
What if I keep seeing you but I still break

I feel like you are worth more than my misery.
It's ironic how we're struggling with the opposite things

Me scared to live and you scared of dying

I really try to let you in but I could never tell you everything. Even tho I think you might understand. I'm so scared of that pitty look in your eyes.

It's hard to explain but I feel guilty dating you. Don't get me wrong I do like you but it feels like Im doing something wrong