these written words will never
be spoken by me
and life will drag by
like tobacco from a cigarette being ****** in
like death itself.
my mouth breathes in fire and smoke
while my brain crawls out
of the ocean of words i drown in.

I digress for these words
barely strung together with needle and thread.
the popcorn strung around
the christmas tree in the middle of july
october brings weddings
while september brings divorce

stop fumbling with the car keys
not one seat belt is on
"i live life
without coming up
for air."

my skeleton is in shambles
you left and took my spine
the jelly fish seem to have more vertebrae
than me

the smoke incinerates my lungs and throat
trying to somehow fit in
with the torn up pieces of my intestines
they twist and turn with
every word i swallow instead of spit
life is funny that way

storm before the calm
choices make people
&
lives have you