I've been searching all over the the place for myself. To be honest I'm glad I've never really had help. Had plenty of support, not when it's about mental health. I think what I want. I'm letting go before I allow myself to be drunk and numb. But let's pretend I'm successfully doing that first. I tend to think of the worst. Unable to forgive myself for those whom I've hurt. But I keep busy and I'm finding myself lost with work. I've had plenty of opportunities to explain my emotions but I'm usually lost at words. Once I find myself I'm a illuminate myself so I can see when darkness takes over.