Oct 2023
*******
*******, for asking me to open up
*******, for using that as fuel to shame me
*******, for hurting me exactly where I begged you not to.
***** you, for pretending soft voices and nice words are compassion
***** you, for taking my words out of context
***** you for acting like you understand and then changing your mind
***** you, for making me feel seen for a moment before turning me into a villain
You praise me for the compassion I gave
For the shame I was without
The empathy I scraped from the bottom of my soul
Hoping, praying maybe this person will give this to me the moment I need it
You silly girl, haven’t you learned your lesson
People always turn
They don’t just leave you empty,
They take everything they can salvage and then some
Leave you with absolutely nothing but self hatred, when you were just fine
And still make you the villain
And you say you have love to give
Stop ******* kidding yourself, silly girl
The only love you’re ever going to receive is the one you give yourself
Why do you still hope that what you give could be returned?
They only know how to take, how to hurt
And then say that you were never there
When will you ever learn your lesson
That’s what they all tell me to do,
Why do you care Kisha?
Why do you do so much for them?
I see pain, I see pain I’ve felt and I want to make it go away, because no one did this for me
Maybe it will bring some solace, some good
Stop ******* caring
I wish I ******* knew how.
You say you hurt
Well good. The care always goes to those who are asking for it, showing their emotions
You’ll find another one to care for you
And I’m stuck in this dark empty hole
Where no one sees me
I’ll stay here where no one sees my pain
The place Ive always been in
You shamed me even for that, ha!
Show your feelings you said
****** *******.
Make me the villain, go on
Do it. I dare you.
You’ll just be another one who’s never seen me
What makes you special?
Join the crowd
We’ll host a party.
At least I’ll be laughing
No one’s sleeping tonight
Let this cruel nature seep out again
I’m ready for you
And let me remember this every time I enjoy the pain I inflict onto myself
So sweet, don’t think twice, ah yes
This is exactly why we do this
I’m never letting someone tell me otherwise again
How foolish, from fools who have never seen me
To tell me how to live?
Ive got one thing to say to you
*******.
*******, for asking me to open up
*******, for using that as fuel to shame me
*******, for hurting me exactly where I begged you not to.
***** you, for pretending soft voices and nice words are compassion
***** you, for taking my words out of context
***** you for acting like you understand and then changing your mind
***** you, for making me feel seen for a moment before turning me into a villain
You praise me for the compassion I gave
For the shame I was without
The empathy I scraped from the bottom of my soul
Hoping, praying maybe this person will give this to me the moment I need it
You silly girl, haven’t you learned your lesson
People always turn
They don’t just leave you empty,
They take everything they can salvage and then some
Leave you with absolutely nothing but self hatred, when you were just fine
And still make you the villain
And you say you have love to give
Stop ******* kidding yourself, silly girl
The only love you’re ever going to receive is the one you give yourself
Why do you still hope that what you give could be returned?
They only know how to take, how to hurt
And then say that you were never there
When will you ever learn your lesson
That’s what they all tell me to do,
Why do you care Kisha?
Why do you do so much for them?
I see pain, I see pain I’ve felt and I want to make it go away, because no one did this for me
Maybe it will bring some solace, some good
Stop ******* caring
I wish I ******* knew how.
You say you hurt
Well good. The care always goes to those who are asking for it, showing their emotions
You’ll find another one to care for you
And I’m stuck in this dark empty hole
Where no one sees me
I’ll stay here where no one sees my pain
The place Ive always been in
You shamed me even for that, ha!
Show your feelings you said
****** *******.
Make me the villain, go on
Do it. I dare you.
You’ll just be another one who’s never seen me
What makes you special?
Join the crowd
We’ll host a party.
At least I’ll be laughing
No one’s sleeping tonight
Let this cruel nature seep out again
I’m ready for you
And let me remember this every time I enjoy the pain I inflict onto myself
So sweet, don’t think twice, ah yes
This is exactly why we do this
I’m never letting someone tell me otherwise again
How foolish, from fools who have never seen me
To tell me how to live?
Ive got one thing to say to you
*******.
