in killing all the natives of what i
declared my
homeland
i felt
a lot better
about myself and
everyone else around me

i sat in the forest and tore myself apart
i threw myself a party and then i threw up my dinner
and then i spent the rest of the night in a bathroom i made

entering here, i have
realized that
never will i leave

i strung myself up by the throat between the trees at night
and hoisted myself to final mental victory
this is it
i've done it this time
this is it
and i am sure
there will be no more