If you asked me 5 years ago what I wanted in life, I'd tell you it's exactly what I have now.

I woke up one day and had nothing but everything I ever dreamed and hoped for at the same time.

I realized that no matter what I had in the material, it meant nothing if I had no one to share it with. There was no one there to see me come out the other side of this fight so it felt like I never did.  

Now I am left with a graveyard of friends and lovers that I had lost along the way.
Those that I still lay flowers at and those that I speak of through clenched teeth.
Their names just taste a little bitter
and maybe I am too.
Bitter that you didn't see the vision or believe that id make anything more of my broken pieces
when I always carried yours through storms and watered your every thought
and god, I really tried to bring you with me.

I have all this land.
A foundation.
Built around tombstones of the past.
No one within 200 miles
but ghosts
and I struggle to say "I'm home".