as I lay sprawled out upon the bed
I stare at the empty spot where you used to be
I close my eyes and pretend you are still here
your chest raising and falling
your eyes twitching while you dream of other lands
I open my eyes and yet again you are gone
I just have to learn to live without you

"It will never be the same, I will never love again", I think.
My demons cascading through my mind, they dance with joy.
Self destruction is for dinner tonight
and even though it isnt my favourite meal
and even though its hard to swallow
I have no choice
but to
choke on it