should i be thinking of you
or savoring this time that you're asleep by doing something less painful for a change
because when you're awake my body works till it aches to occupy sufficient time in your day
so you'll remember me
cause it's all that i can change,
the amount of insignificant praise that i give you
just hoping you won't go away
and i count the hours as it gets late
accounting for everything i can see
praying you don't start another chain of things that don't involve me
cause i can't handle it
i'm so weak
and it's the most mundane things that trigger this anxiety
and so i'm tired
and i'm sorry

and i'll let you rest
cause God knows you need it
much more than me