i've been making eye contact with a lot of 11:11s lately.

i hope it will rain tomorrow. i need someone to understand how this feels. the clouds never fail to do so.

i made sure i ate today and that might be my favorite little victory for the day.

i wait for you to say the word but fear it may never be said.

i got another mosquito bite today...that's 23.

i got really excited earlier when i felt my phone vibrate! i thought you were calling me but it was actually just a robot.

i laughed so hard earlier that my stomach hurt when my sister asked me who taylor lautner is married to...it's funny because her name is also taylor. if you know you know.

"love is patient"
is the first line.

they say if you insert their name in replacement for "love", and it is all true, then they're the one for you...i promise i am trying to be everything love is for you...

i find no struggle when i look in the mirror as i study my eyes and everything i used to be and never was that i so suddenly am.

this work-in-progress-yet-a-masterpiece of a mind, body, & old soul of mine.

i find no struggle when i look in the mirror...only that i hope you like what you see when you see me.

i threw away the rest of the brownies i baked in the trash because no one would finish them. they were air-stale.

it's (not) funny because that seems to be what happens in real life, isn't it? the love, time, thought, & effort we pour into others ends up thrown out because it goes unappreciated...or even worse...unloved in reciprocal.

(and no i'm not referring to you, you know who you are (i hope))

you'd think one would get used to it after many years.

but maybe not us. no, not those like us. it always hits as if it's the first time we're feeling it.

i made an interesting observation over the past several months: no matter how many chances i give others and no matter HOW many times they've hurt, disappointed, or let me down...it STILL surprises me. EVERY. SINGLE. time. and i don't know how...i don't know why...i don't know why.

i also made another observation...one less interesting but all the more wonderful: i can dance like no one's watching to the songs i used to cry to or skip...if that doesn't say healing i don't know what does.

11:11

i wish you will find that healing and peace soon, too.