I’m not here
This isn’t escape from fear
My pain is real without tears
Maybe I’ll drown myself in beer

I’m not here
The sentiment is crystal clear
I’m done being the fearless deer
All alone as this seer

I’m not here
Enough hoping someone will hold me near
Enough waiting for one to whom I’ll be dear
It’s time, I’m ready to disappear

I’m not here
This is where I’ve gotten being sincere
Maybe this time I’ll be precise with the pills
Could that get me to finally be still?
I wonder if that’ll end the illusion of will

I’m not here
Dissipated into the atmosphere
I’ll hurt you if you try to interfere
Figure out how to finally go for the ****
Funny how powerful is a little pill.

I’m done.