its been 9 months and one day
it feels like ive birthed a baby
like im birthing myself
a new
9 months since
I have been sober
I acknowledge my struggles
that many can't see
and how much I have cried
and how much I have hurt
I am so proud of myself
of how far I have come
places
that all of the AA type of meetings
never brought me here
even when I do feel shame
I am trying to give myself compassion
actually starting to like who I am
to dance in the street
as if noone is watching
because life is meant to be fun
and intresting
learning how to have different healthier
types of fun
and meaning in life
learning how to be a brand new self
so I feel super young but old in some ways
for what my eyes have seen
and experienced in this life
but I am starting to see those things
as treasures as well,
for life is a learning school
for our soul
and when we learn to heed the messeges
and flow instead of always just go
with what our ego wants
than life can become better.