I have all these thoughts in my head
Swirling, twirling around
Telling me I’m better off dead
With every last word I left unsaid
My toxic actions  
Tightened lips
Communication paralysis
My pins became knifes
I didn’t take notes
I didn’t show up
I lost touch
I wanted to share it all
But I’m learning  
You can’t, I can’t
I can’t share everything
Something’s are better left unsaid
Kept safe in my head
For I fear now, if I say them aloud
They’ll be the last words I say
They’d be the reason
Knowing the truth  
We’d both lose grip
We’d both float away
We’d both disappear
I don’t know if it’d be together
But I keep that thought near