I stand alone in the crowd
Surrounded by couples and friends
Barely anyone speaks or notices me
It's like I don't really exist
Like I'm just not there
It has happened so much
You would wonder that I'm not used to it by now
One girl talks to me
And just laughs at everything I say
I'm trying to see it as maybe she was just awkward like me
But it's hard not to feel that she wasn't just laughing at me
I'm trying so hard to get over the shame
And rejection that I feel for myself
And I push myself to go outside
But it feels so so hard
And I kinda figure what's the point
But ik that I spend enough time alone
And in my house by myself
So I am trying
Another one makes a joke about me getting
Lost alone
I just don't understand
Why people are the way they are
I know I maybe don't know it all
But I just don't quite understand.