Are you running to fast?
trying to keep up with the leader?
but the people you want to watch,
are looking the other way?
you glance up to see there
encouraging smiles
but one stairs off into the distance
the other on the phone.
Do you wonder if they see you about
to take first place only to trip and fall
because you looked to see if they
were watching you.

Afterwards they don’t even
ask about the fall.  
they congratulate you,
after you lie to them
saying you got first.
They go back to their business.
You go to your brothers meet
they sand up yelling and screaming
at him to go faster and critique him
at the end of the day
and you wonder do they even see you.