I'll shortly pay off my debt
Even if I made you a solemn commitment, please don't be furious at me or ignore me

Because it's likely to happen again, I won't sneer
However, I need your assistance since in the end, everything consumes my flesh until nothing is left
And you won't see me ever again
Would you really?
Do you?
Please don't ask me that because even if I were certain, I would still blaspheme

What will people say about me if I claim to "don't care what people say"? Of course I care, but I'm tired of everything and I can't say yes to everything
You've also watched it, but tell me what you think
Are you abhorrent? Or feel bad?
I could feel the looks of contempt and rejection to some extent
You know me very well; in fact, you know everything about me; I'm shy and don't want to show myself
So far, only you are aware

Is it already too late, or does actual time not longer exist?
So why did I continue doing what I already knew to do?
Describe everything to me so that I won't be surprised
Perhaps I'm startled, but you already know how stupid I've always been
Don't use foul language or curse at me
You have asked for that, and so I am

At times, I experience restraint
Perhaps it's because I'm obnoxious, but you're also annoying; you're like a mother, but you're not my mother, and you're not a God

Can it make any more sense? I didn't mean to challenge, but why did you let me act in this way after saying, "You'll understand later"?
Do you already know that and have you just allowed it to happen?

Come to me now while I still have the ability to lie to you, scrunch up my mouth, and roll my eyes in your direction
Don't leave me alone, just explain
I didn't go; it was you who abandoned me in this manner

Wait, did you actually stay with me?
You already know I'm leaving, don't you?
I'm going insane, but at least I'm back
Do you think I'll ever leave you again?

Will I continue to trust in you?
Will you continue to trust in me?
Everything others have worked for should pay off, but I'm not sure when I'll sacrifice other people's kindness for my own shortcomings.

Have you ever wondered how it is that you always seem to know about everything while I don't?
I sometimes find it difficult to wait for the day, so please don't make me
I need this to be over with soon because I don't want to know anymore
I'm not sure how long I can wait, but I'm confident that you will
We are like a mirror; as long as you see me, I'll see you

I won't use your time for my own sake
Even if you'll end up being let down, leave me alone
Would you experience repeated disappointment?
But I don't believe that's significantly worse than feeling hate for oneself

The rest is up to you; just have faith in me. I'll take care of myself
Don't tell me you're disappointed; I've been disappointed in everything, so don't say that to me
This won't change, and I'll only make it with a lot of confidence
So please don't bother me right now; I'm fine

Even though it feels like I've said it before, it will be repeated; that's where I need you
Please
Just get it all done
Due to the fact that I will not swear
It's adequate