(From her perspective)

I am hurting in inside, and i dont know what to do. Because  on hand I love, want,  but the other hand i cant stand you. Why do you make me feel this way? Why do i allow it? I was fine before i fell for you, so i know your love i can do with out it. But how? i dont want to.  I wish i could pour into you the words, i need to hear.  To quall my hopes, and subsidie my fears. But it not my places, these things need to be done on your own, in your own space. How do we move forward, when my pleas are falling to deaf ear. We could be talking, but it seem as if your not here. Sweep me off my feet, hold me and tell me you love me.  Not just you love me, so you can touch me.  Where are we going? What do you want for us? This relationship, i hope is build on more then lust. What do you need from me? What can i do to make you happy? Do you see us years from now living happily? Tell me how will we get there? Because there is so, so far from here. And when i think about all of this, my eyes start to tear.  Because it cannot be what i want, but what is best for us as we move on. I just hope we figure it out before this feel is all gone.