As i sat holding my phone all day, waiting for an update,
I sat worrying all day,
I sat hoping you would be honest & admit what you put me through.
I got the phone call to say that you have remembered me,
I got the news that you have denied everything.
Do you know how that feels?
Do you know that you think you hold power over me?
Do you know that you're slowly loosing that power.
I have finally felt a different emotion other than love today.
I never wanted to feel anger towards you, today i do.

I know you'd of been scared of this day ever happening,
I know you never excepted it happen,
I never excepted id of ever been strong enough to make this day happen,
I guess i doubted my own strength.
I never thought you'd admit the truth,
I just hoped.
I was never you're friend, you was never mine, it was a whole lot deeper than that as you know.

You loved me as i loved you.
You know excalty why im saying this because you know its excalty what happened.
You never thought id ever realise what you have done.
Thats why you went that day after the lake's,
You thought you was going to be caught. You just never knew it would be 15 years later.
You're love only kept you safe for so long.
I learnt it was manipulation.

Im sorry for you're family & how they feel at this time.
This is now you're guilt to carry.

I question.. how you just carried on with you're life daily, whilst i suffered.

That isn't love.

I feel angry then i feel guilty that i feel angry.

I hope your conscious kicks in.