I remember the days when
You were just a boy running alongside us,
Super-speeding on the roads and
Meeting us, or at least me, at the junction

I remember the days when
You were just a reflection off the
Lonely lights, which never shone,
A companion in the dark, companionless nights

I remember the days when
You were just standing there in a corner
Smiling like an idiot or worried to the max
When I was sleeping soundly and you'd
Watch me curl up into a ball and drool,
Or when I was crying, huddling in my
Little ball of blankets, screaming silent howls

I remember the day
You left.

You left without a trace.
You didn't say anything.
I anticipated the whole night for you to
Take me away into that
Non-existent kingdom in a dreamland
Not so far

I waited
I stayed up
And I did curl up into a ball
I cried the whole night through,
My eyes were red and puffy
But I couldn't tell them why

And honestly
I grew very mad
Because you never came
Until three or four years later

But once I knew your reason
I'd shut up for the
Seemingly longest time