is it not life
for me to die for
voices in my head hate it
all speaking different personalities into me

look at me
who am i really
the life i dreamt about as a child
i now live its opposite

ain't life worth dying for
for no life without death
no happiness without anguish
no purpose without mistakes

ain't life worth losing for
ain't a smile on my face worth crying over
ain't a smile on my face worth stressing for
ain't a smile on my face worth fighting for

yet i just feel it's all in vain
life is just the same
not worth dying for
not worth even living for